Because I'm sick,
Because I lied,
Because I hurt,
Because he's dead,
Because I'm weak,
Because I cry,
Because I throw fits,
Because I've been kicked out,
Because I ignore guilt,
Because I'm selfish,
Because I hate not remembering,
Because I'm ashamed,
Because It's killing me,
Because I hate the scars,
Because I lack confidence,
Because no one will trust me,
Because I make scenes,
Because I'm anxious,
Because I'm scared,
Because I push others away,
Because I hurt my family,
Because I create stacks of debt,
Because I starve,
Because I lost him as my friend,
Because I repeat mistakes,
Because I want this to work,
Because high school ended 5 years ago,
Because I want to live.

Never look back.
xxx